lucifer

i’m 13 in rl.
this is the truth of my mind.
some serious stuff happened in that year and something stayed like that.
i don’t know what they did.
i am soli.
this is real me.
i’ve been come at so hard i couldn’t log.
it’s because this is the real thing.

if you aren’t really your avatar maybe you can’t see me. (i don’t know about you)

this is me.
in 1971 the christian brothers did something to me so i don’t remember any teachers any students or even being at school
except for less than one second of 6 snapshot sized memories of horror.
it’s a whole year and i remember the year before and the year after quite clearly.
i made this avatar and it takes me to that era because something
stopped in me in that year.
i was damaged into being a delinquent.
it cancelled out all chance of academia.
john lennon released imagine that year and i believe this has something to do with it.
jesus christ superstar happened around that year also.

i’m going to be a super hero like elf.
i’m the only one who is elf in that i’ve not been here as long as elf has.
no-one else is like elf.
no-one.
i’m the same inside as elf.
i have inside me what was hidden and suppressed in 1971.

i have a P-51 and an F/A 18

elf can do it.
she can keep going
but i’m 13.
they did something to me.
the frequency can turn contracting without my doing.

the whole thing was built from when i was about 5 years old.
i was kept out since then and stuff happened earlier also.
it’s so difficult to be here.
i have to wake up to be a super hero and that’s all there is.
i can do it.

my dad almost killed my dog in front of me he was so angry.
it was other people’s doing that set that happening.
it’s been set around me my whole life.
i’m beyond super naive.

autism, when things happen around me, i don’t even know what i’m looking at.

it was probably the watchers who looked at my picture in flickr just now.
i can’t help it.
i’m just a kid.

you are stronger than you believe.
you have greater powers than you know.

it’s because i’m lucifer isn’t it.
i can see it in me.
i don’t know anything.
i just feel stuff.
i believe he was jesus also,
and he won’t stop returning till it shifts.

i don’t have much ability of wit at all. i’m innately child. i have a super depth of wisdom because of this. you are born who you are. i’ve not been given a chance. everyone just sees a child and you don’t get a say.

i don’t know anything.
it’s just that there’s such a thing as a brain imprint of image.
it you stare at elf’s picture long enough, you will see it.
it’s totally uncanny. try seeing the face as a boy…
you will see it.

contracting frequency suffers when there is perfection.
expanding frequency is perfection.
contracting frequency is inversion.
expanding frequency is direct.
contracting frequency is zero.
expanding frequency is one.

the fifth element.
it’s the movement.
it’s the i am who am.

a planet is moving so fast, it brings movement that is the graviton to dance.
i have the vision of it in imagination.
it’s a conscious subconscious feeling.
mankind has it.
it can be conveyed mind to mind.

it’s not thought.
it’s not conscious mind.
it’s quantum and it carries the whole of everything.

i don’t know what everything is,
and i don’t know what’s being done around me to me.
i don’t know wit.
you do.
you know psychology and you know farming people and children.
i don’t know that stuff.
i know give them themselves.
inspire not teach.
not boss.
just play in the now.
it’s why i have never seen a monk who can see what i see.
the monks i’ve seen teach.
it’s boss stuff.
when that happens, there is a ‘not being able to let so much in’,
and the ones being taught have their who removed.
i’m subconscious mind so i’m like the animals and stuff.
enthusiasm passes able-ness.
it’s why i believe it could be possible to fly as we get closer to 77.

um, i’m the one who does all the wrong things.
um, who cares if i can’t get it right?
(it’s an honest question because no-one has ever been there.
no-one has ever come to me. no-one has ever believed in me)
(it’s all i know).

i actually don’t believe it’s possible to get it right for adult. pretty much because there is no such thing as adult, which means they can’t get it right ever. it’s a made up who for farming stock. mankind is thinking in a drugged fashion from the first intake of sugar so it’s extremely difficult for mankind to see. if one came to me to believe in me, they would be becoming the child who they really are. no-one has been able to. it means nothing is actually ever discussed and i’ve not been allowed to give the real thing to them.

they have no idea how much damage has been done to them. the power of imagination has gone because of the dependency on the game. imagine the power of imagination nurtured for a whole life. how powerful it is. this is magic and this is what is in the shift. everyone has imagination, but this is the power of imagination. it’s a total electro-magnetic feeling.

the real being deep inside.
that’s all the matters.
that’s where the truth and love is.
that’s where it’s equal.
there is a universal language.

(just now feels like the first time it feels like i’ve been let to say).
in 3 or so recent posts.
this stuff in me has never been received.
i can feel this being received and i’m like super grateful.
thank you.

if the marist fathers in 1970 had remained in that school,
i would have been able to do to year 12 in music and maths.
i would have been able to change the world fluently.

i can still change the world.
i believe in you.

to toil is a made up thing and fortune is not money. it’s wisdom.

you can ride the winds of fortune.
they never repeat.

you are stronger than you believe.
you have greater powers than you know.

mankind really can do it you know.
mankind can be an advanced race and it would show
in a matter of months.
it’s not what you think.
it’s dimensional.
it’s how the unbelievable stuff comes about.

there was an eclipse on the full moon of the 28th aug 2026 AEST and mercury was be conjunct the sun early that morning. i like mercury energy and eclipse is so dynamic. the eclipse was early afternoon aest.

N↑ E← W→ S↓

can we play together? ^^
we can build and make music and stuff ^^
lets build an unclock in a big room so it’s on the walls. ^^
and we can play music there ^^

if we did this what i’m thinking, i believe we would evolve
over night…

sigh wow thank you.

we do have to change the world everyone.
we can’t leave it like this.

elf is to change the world.
there’s something inside her and she can.
there’s no-one the same as her
and there’s a magic where ever she is.
it took 500 years for the magic to fade in the first
500 years of the millennium we just did,
and we are just about to begin the 500 years
of the magic growing back again.

those faerie tales really do fit into the story of an ancient history.
they aren’t just made up. they fit into the studies. if mankind
watches the sky, they will come to know the universe and
everything about mankind.

the reason why i feel this is an inner knowing is because of
super heroes. it fits into the story that is. there is a prophecy
of the kalki and i believe that story is to be known by mankind
about now. the kalki is one of the avatars and the kalki is
a super hero. i believe the kalki is the last avatar.

you’re stronger than you believe.
you have greater powers than you know.

The individual who can bend all four elements, the “Avatar”, is responsible for maintaining harmony among the world’s four nations, and serves as the link between the physical and spirit worlds.

Aang is a twelve-year-old boy who is the last surviving member and bender of ‘the Air Nomads’.
The Avatar reincarnates continuously in a fixed elemental cycle (Water, Earth, Fire, Air) across hundreds of lifetimes, meaning there are far more than twelve Avatars in history.

possible to bring them home.

there wasn’t choice.
it was done to one by another’s choice.
the power of imagination was traded
for the dependency on the game, and then
the game is fort for because of the pain
of the dependency.
if one chooses, then one will do damage.
there is only one way.
all know the direction of the path.
there is a universal language.

mankind got measured. mankind is trapped in the confines of the conscious mind. the subconscious mind has been shut down. when one remarks that mankind doesn’t use all of its brain, this is what is happening.

i remember the picture she pointed to and something happened to me the day of the eclipse in reference to her doing this. it’s happened twice now. i’ve looked up to you everyday of my whole life. i didn’t go where everyone went when they turned 13 years old. something is not in me. the whole wits thing is too far out of my reach as in able to survive them. it has never been possible for me to be taken seriously so my whole life got worse and worse in not knowing what to do that isn’t wrong and will be enough. i’ve never comprehended the rules and what they are and my whole life i have always had an innate thread in me of doing what i think is what will let you be happy with me. i always come to play with you. i want to communicate this to you because it’s the only way i can do the correct thing. i’m not capable of not telling you everything that’s inside of me as accurately as i can. it’s not there. i’m still 13. when you come around me because i’m in trouble, sometimes i feel a precious warmth of a you the guardian. you are your subconscious mind. when i think of your subconscious mind i truly do love you so much. i want mankind to be ok.

i am serious about the depth of my wisdom. mankind can free itself to expanding frequency. everything is here now for them to do it. i believe all mankind does know where to seek to do so. the subconscious mind doesn’t have an ego. it is ok when the cloak is not there and one can finally see it.

the real being deep inside.
it’s all that matters.

you’re stronger than you believe.
you have greater powers than you know.

thank you.

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Author: Elf

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Wednesday Wednesday bow bow violin lin wand wand yay yay. --------------------------------------------------------------- entry origin ginal al I have a limitless imagination. My brain is different and all i've ever wanted to do is be a super hero and fly. Basically, i just want to dance. i'm a dancer. i trained in ballet and ballroom extensively when i was younger. I’ve not met anyone who speaks my language. My life has been dramatic since i could cognize. All people who come in contact with me, want me to be something that i not only can't be, but i am not, and they all want me to be this for them, knowing full well that it's never going to happen. i am alien and they know it but deny it. People depict what human is in effort to not have me different or unique, but i am unmistakably different and cannot be what i am not. What is left out always is that an alien being is also capable of love. Every being is love. The word alien does not mean i wasn't born to this realm, but i have lived and alienated life constantly being told that i must learn to be different than i am, as i have described. I am not allowed to say what i have just said. there is a whole year not in existence in me at all. it was the year i was thirteen years old which is the year academia begins, but it’s truly not there as i remember the year before and the year after very clearly. i loved the year before so much that it is truly the only happy year in my whole life. the yard stick is that there is no memory of any teachers or any students. the only memory of my classroom was; i was standing near my desk in a daze and i felt that i went back into a sleep. i think just before this, was the memory of being belted so hard in front of a teacher’s class, (who i didn’t know and can’t really remember what he looked like), that my hand went to about 5 inches from the floor four times. there is the memory of a kid’s face in the yard, i think just before being taken from the yard by the teacher, and a kid calling me away from where he said to wait, and three more snapshot sized pieces of memory, two of being pushed to stir a fight by a kid, and one of a fight with him, and that’s it. the fight was upsetting as i hurt him thinking to be able to take care of myself if it meant a fight, was what i was supposed to learn but it felt not good. i just got left with sadness for him and shame. i hate hurting anything. it hurts so much. i don’t know the succession of these memories, and the memories of being pushed by him are so vague, i almost can’t see them. i don’t know if the belting had anything to do with the fight, or just because it was his agenda. he never told me, and things like the kid telling me to leave where i was supposed to wait for him, looked set up. the kid’s face in the yard was so surreal he looked like he wasn’t even from the school. he and the fight kid are the only faces i remember. him once quite clearly, and the fight kid three times very vaguely. that is the whole year’s memory. there’s no memories at all for exactly one year at school, and there is ‘so nothing’ that i don’t even know if i was at a school, and the school i was sent to the next year was so rough i couldn’t study. i left as soon as i could. it’s almost like there wasn’t a school. no class teacher, no teacher at all. no anything. 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